This morning on the way in to work I kinda had a moment.
You know those moments where you day dream and think of all sorts of things?
C'mon, I know you have them.
Stuck in traffic with all these people headed to their jobs
I began to think (oh no, look out!).
What am I doing? I'm stuck in a trap.
The "more" trap.
More things to call mine.
We work - seperate ourselves from our family - for what?
To pay bills?
Working to live, living to work.
If I didn't work, I wouldn't need a car.
I would not have to pay with my left arm and right leg for gas.
I wouldn't need to buy lunches on the go.
I would not need to spend more money for convenience.
I feel like I'm caught in a trap.
...and I can't really explain it.
It's possible to live a much simpler life.
With fewer expenses and fewer bills.
It's possible to do, yet I'm stuck.
and chances are - you are stuck, too.
I mean, how many people get up in the mornings and say "I love my job."
It's a small percentage I'm sure.
Why do we force ourselves to be away from our family more than we are with them just so that we can have things. Yes, there are necessities, clothes, food, and a home, but what about two cars? Convenience. Cell phones? Convenience. It's slightly overwhelming the world we live in. The hustle and bustle is outrageous. Granted, I don't have a very stressful job, but it stresses me to be away from my baby missing this crucial time of her life. Do I have any options? Quitting my job is seemingly not an option, but it does not fulfill me. Being a loving, caring, and compassionate wife and mother fulfills me. Spending time with my husband and letting him know he is cherished fulfills me. Helping my baby develop new skills and investing into this short season of her being an infant fulfills me. This could be simply a fleeting moment, but I'm not sure.
Am I alone in these thoughts?